Catch up

Whoa, I can't believe it's been like 2 weeks since I last posted on here. Not a whole lot has been going on, but here's the latest:

- My truck wouldn't start one morning, had to get it towed and it needed a new battery. While it was there of course the dealership found more things that needed to be done, such as 30,000 mile service, brake fluid changed, fuel injectors cleaned or something like that, etc. I could get all that taken care of for around $800. Yeah, right.

- I got a haircut. It was way overdue and catching sight of myself in one of those 3 angle mirrors really pushed me to go. I brought a picture of what I wanted. The guy says, "OK, so long layers and about at the shoulders?" I say yes to long layers but past the shoulders so I can pin it up. Well, I got the long layers part, but it's above my shoulders. Good thing it will grow. I like it a little more each day though, despite having to use about a million clips to pin it up. Anything would be an improvement over what I had.

- E and I are doing well. He asked me several days ago, when am I going to come to him permanently? I told him when he tells me the dogs are welcome. I suggested again him letting me "rent" his rental unit (like a guest house in the back) to keep the dogs. It would be "temporary" anyway since he wants to sell the house when the market turns around. He said he'd think about it, but I'm not holding my breath. We saw each other this weekend, it had been 2 weeks since we were last together and we were both going crazy about it. It's very hard being apart. This weekend we did some exploring, we went to Neptune Beach to find an organic farmer's market (smaller than expected, definite hippie crowd, but very cool) and bought a few things. We also tried a new restaurant, this 2 story outdoors cafe 2 blocks from the beach. The food wasn't that great but it was something new. We also browsed a Bali import store, and I have my eye on several things in there. We had a good time.

- Work is the same. I'm here, they pay me. That's pretty much all there is to it, LOL. It's a job.

- I'm still not really talking to my brother. Hopefully not for too much longer but I'm not bending over backwards anymore either.

- I'm feeling a little more positive about my future. I really, really hope that E and I work out and we get married. My number 1 goal for my life right now is to get married again and have children, as soon as possible (not rushing, not settling, but I don't want to wait forever either) but if that doesn't work out right away, I'm starting to become more hopeful about school. I'm getting excited about the idea that after I get my AA (still a long ways away) I think I could go wherever I want to get my Bachelors. I could move to a completely new city if I wanted. I could have some fabulous career someday if I wanted. The thing is, I can do whatever I want in that respect. I don't look around my sad house and think, I'm going to be here the rest of my life, alone, a crazy cat lady. I'm seeing this is more of a stepping stone to what I really want out of life.

- I had a really cool idea for an art project but I don't want to go into too many details right now. I've been trying to come up with a way to express myself creatively, but in an original way, and I think I have it. I need to plan a little more, as it will involve some expense, and time and space, and I will need help from a "model."

- After reading about Tanja's and someone else's water heater busting, I'm terrified mine is going to do the same thing. It's old, rusty and sitting directly on the floor in my laundry room/garage. I'm renting from my uncle and my house is no where ready for an "inspection" so I'm desperately trying to get things cleaned up in case I need to call him. There's actually other repairs that need to be done anyway, but I'm hoping to get it looking good before there's an emergency. Cross your fingers for me, please!