Sigh...another baby function. I want to be happy, I really do. I put on a good show I think, but all I have inside me is...it should be me. Is that horrible?
So my friend Connie is having her second baby, a girl this time, and this past Sunday I went to her shower. It was mainly her family there, all super-Catholics and members of my church, but it was kind of sad how one of the only questions or comments made to me was to ask where my husband is in the cemetery. Sigh...
But, a new life will soon be here. A cute little girl. I will try to be happy. I may be seeing my other friend tomorrow. She's pregnant as well. Of course I will smile and act excited and say congratulations while I'm dying inside. It is my lot in life I think.
I will end the self-pity here. I'm really not as depressed as I think I seem in this post, it's just hard to see others with what I want so badly, that's all.
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2 comments:
Not depressed--simply reflective--there is a difference. (((Hugs to you))))
Big hug to you Sara. I so understand your feelings. One day I'll come to your baby shower, really. And you'll make the most wonderful mom I know that.
Tanja
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