Why is he not calling? Also, interesting phone call last night.

Why is he not playing the game right? He should be calling me, telling me how sorry he is, and how we have got to make this work because he can't live without me. Sure, I told him I didn't want to be friends with him, but that's only because I couldn't torture myself knowing he was dating someone else while pretending to be OK with it. He should be calling anyway! That's what always happened before. The longer it goes, the more I think he does have someone else, and that makes me feel really sad.

I had an interesting phone call last night from someone new I met online. We had only emailed a few short replies to each other, and then decided to talk on the phone. That man talked my ear off for 2.5 hours! He talks so fast it was difficult to get a word in edgewise. Some things about him were right with my taste, others not so much. I really like an assertive guy, someone who takes charge, but he took it beyond that. He dropped the bomb that he is into the "dominant-submissive lifestyle" (his words). I don't even know exactly what he means by that. Are we talking leather, punishments, S&M? I don't think I want to be with someone who is "in the lifestyle" as he put it. He did like the dogs idea though. Said he could tell I was goodhearted, especially since I had more than 1, and he really liked that.

He also gave me some advice: the type of man who will be interested in me will want to see pictures of me, of my booty specifically, and best if I am bending over, or in some sexy panties, stuff like that. Can you believe it? I told him that if a man wanted to see all that to figure out if he liked me, then I wasn't going to like that man. He called me naiive.

Is that true? I see pictures of women on their dating profiles, with the lowcut shirts and cameras angled down to see their cleavage; posing provocatively in their mini-skirts or skin-tight jeans... is that how I should do it? I just think that sends the wrong message, that they are looking for sex first, maybe a relationship later.

I have now emailed/talked with a few guys (I know, so soon, but I needed the distraction) and the more I do, the more it makes me wish for E. There were so many good things about him. He treated me with respect, was gentle when needed and not so gentle when that was needed too. It makes me miss him so much more, and wonder will I ever find someone that combines his good traits with also accepting my pets?