Signs, and lack thereof

I read a lot of posts about signs on the widow board; things like dimes in odd places, flickering electricity, or songs on the radio make people think they're getting messages from spouses. I just can't quite bring myself to really believe in them. Maybe because I've never experienced it for myself? I hardly dream about Joe, maybe three dreams since he died. None of them had any important message that I'm aware of. In a way, that makes me feel sad. Am I not sensitive enough to pick up on them? Is he not able to send any signs or messages? I'm leery about going to a psychic, I think so many of those people are just thieves.

One possible "sign", or at least a weird make-you-think moment: A few weeks ago, I was walking into school with my sister for our math classes and asked her if she had a pencil. She pulled one out - it was one that Joe had taken from our dentist's office. (He had a habit of taking the doctor's office pens and pencils. I just thought it was strange after all this time (a year and a half after he died) that pencil would come up. I had been feeling a little down around that time, but I just find it hard to believe IF Joe was able to send me a sign, that he would do it with something as inconspicuous as a pencil.

Interesting. Just food for thought, I guess.