Monday, March 23, 2009

Never felt his presence

Almost 2 years out, and I can't say that I ever remember feeling his presence. I read about those lucky people who hear their loved ones, or have a visitation dream, or feel their touch, or their breath on their ear... I don't get any of that.

Part of me wonders what I'm doing wrong that I'm not receiving these messages. Part of me thinks that he's mad a me, and that's why. (Very small part of me but still that thought is there in the back of my head.) I am a Christian, I have faith as best I can, but it does make me question my faith somewhat that I can't feel him, or have proof of his situation.

I have to admit another part of me thinks these signs and messages are all in someone's head (no offense meant by that, since I haven't experienced it, it's hard to imagine it).

I know there's never a way to definitively say, yes they are capable of visiting, and this is how you know...

Just kind of sad.

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